3 WORDS : START BEING YOURSELF

lately i haven't been writing a lot,
but
lately a lot has happened,
man i cant recap all of them, to many to many to many
yet i am quite surprise that i manage to survive all of them,
im proud man!!!! hehehe
but still
it is still pretty much agonizing, pain to much babe fuh!!!!!!!!!
hehehe
laugh when you cant laugh
smile when u want to cry
being happy when ur freaking sad and mad,
some of you might think man this guy got a hell of a life that sucks!!! everytime he writes its all about problems and problems
i know anybody want to trade shoes
hehe
what am i saying,
.........
i use to trust a fren
trust i mean for life,
now i dont
i dont any more
stab ive stab to many times to many people
13 years went down to drain just like that
i cant find the reason why,
whats life when u got no frens
whats life for when u have frens that cannot be trusted
then why do we need frens, i still have i didnt say i dont
but who can take 13 years from me
they did hehehehe
just like that........
nice isnt it
life is another word for problem
there is no life without problem
so u live with people to share with ur problems these are frens
when frens are like assholes.....
what must i do
and me myself
my type is very covering and pretending
problems are not meant for u to get overreacted with others, pissed of to others, scolding others
that sux,
but no matter what u don to cover ur wounds people still are affectes maybe not harshly but concern-ly, i guess
.......................
dunno what else to say ...
just speechless............
yeah one more thing the same asshole who fucked me, who i still call him my fren, told me something worth for the 13 years contract,
well actually i dunnow what he meat but that was the last thing he told me that for him is the last good thing he did for me
3 words that made me think again maybe he is right,
maybe he is telling something which make sense
still that 3 words still rings in my head i'll never forget it i guess,
i got to do something i guess,